we stood there staring blankly as the signs go different directions
those three colored lights
witnessed how pain restrained the anger
...the truth paid me a visit a long time ago and
I've sold my tears for a very esteemed price
relatively providing the transitory vaccine
against a threatening infection
but the potent affirmation of its validity
stubbornly induced me to take the first baby steps
towards an irreparable damage

why wont you let me go?
(silence)
your ignorance for the answer to this
is insanely difficult to accept..

i am furious and in pain

you never really appreciated me
because if you did...you would stick to your word...
i've lost count of the promises you've made and broken.
To the best of my effort I have tried
gathering the bits of strength left in me
...I don't want to hate you...
hating you would slowly crucify me in this phase
im dreading to move forward to the next most crucial phase - forgiveness
My faint optimism convinces me that finishing these episodes
would introduce me to a new track - moving on...letting go of the feelings

but you continue to challenge my faith

no more learning...
the room was my delusion
there was never an available seat
in that case...i'm dropping the subject for good